but i want him to be mine; it don’t matter the title and it don’t matter who knows… all i want to do is be with him

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Aida and I have been talking about old times…heh…

::Flashback::

Setting at Manhattan Mall, Macy’s , McDonalds-September 26th 2004

LOL…Joseph came with us, and we were trying to avoid him and stuff…hahahahaha and then we were like lying to him so much…gosh BAD MISTAKE I MADE but it was still funny!!

Setting at hallway-Nov. 4th 2004

heh…remember when I had to introduce you to Harry? I’m like “AIDA THIS IS HARRY!!” and then the door bumped into his head…LOL…remember that Aida? It felt like so long ago…

Setting at home-Nov. 5th 2004

Remember when I used to make chatrooms everyday for the pass week? I invited Harry in the chatroom while he invited all his hudde friends…Alex, Angela and Ryan…LOL remember when the AXO thing was like a big thing…and we looked at Ryan’s AXO and was like =O =O =O …SO CUTE LOLOL….

Setting at Seaport November 7th

We went there and talking about SOOO much stuff and just staring at the ocean, we also called Harry to see if he got his hair cut or not…LOL we had so fun…that was when we were still so carefree heh…heh…heh…

Setting at train station November 12th

First time I finally met that SO CUTE dude…lol it was so funny, Aida trying to grab a picture of Harry and Ryan and then I’m just like…OHH YOUR CUTE lol and ran into the train…I remember later on Ryan was like “I don’t remember anyone besides Aida because she was wearing that bright pink sweatshirt” LOLOL

Setting at 206 November 19th 2004

Haha, it took Harry 1 wk to convinced both of us to go to the park with them, and when we finally said yes we wanted to back out because the “Hudde” people were staring at us? LOL…I remember so clearly of this…we taught you how to serve AIDA ^^ and then that was the first time we met Chrissy ^^ I also remembered we made Harry bring us home…heh…lol >.<

Setting at home December 9th 2004

So much crazy things….so confusing AHH!!

Setting at Marine Park December 17th 2004

Hey Aida…remember when we were there and playing handball? Heh, we were just playing for fun and we keep laughing at you and your butt…then we were just sitting there watching Harry and Ryan playing basketball with Kelvin…heh and then Ben took off his shirt and then Ryan dared Hassan to take off his pants, of course…Hassan did and then Ryan ran around the whole park screaming “MY EYES” hahaha….that was fun….

Setting at Hui’s House  December 18th 2004

Chocolate making, lots of fun….ended up arguing with Aida about…things….no need to know =] Aida and me end up being pissy…eh…

Setting at home December 22th 2004

…I HATED THIS DAY I HATED IT I HATED IT I HATED IT AND I STILL HATED IT

Setting at Maria’s house December 30th 2004

Went to take the B9 with Aida, screaming on the phone with Ryan saying “WHAT BLUE DRY CLEANERS I SEE NO BLUE DRY CLEANERS” hahahha so fun…=P kind of watched I, Robot…and gossiped and had fun…haha flings….

Setting at Ryan’s house, 206, Ming’s Place January 1st 2005

Went to Ryan’s and first time playing Halo….hahahaha….met Eric finally and hanged out with a whole bunch of people…it was awesome….and…um..everything that happened afterwards is um no need to say =P [P.S got Aida pissed off and got home at 12 midnight….got into deep trouble…but was happy….no need to ask]

Setting at Ryan’s house January 26th 2005

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Setting at 206, Eric’s house February 1st 2005

Went to 206 for a snowball fight, got all wet and stuff hahaha then went to Eric’s house to dry off and played DDR…Aida was screaming at the end…because of some reason hehehe >.< and we took the B3 and take it all the way to the N train station…lol we always will remember that

Setting at Chinatown, Kings Plaza February 9th 2005

We first went to Chinatown, Aida, Chrissy, Steph, Jonathan…all of a sudden we ended up in Kings Plaza…we took many pictures but we ended up also STALKING the hudde people…gosh it was so embarrassing and so stupid…but it’s a funny thing to remember HAHAHAHAH

Setting at Pizzeria February 14th 2005

Went to the pizzeria with Ryan, Justin, Harry, Larry, Chris, Aida and Chrissy. Chris and Chrissy valentine day =] it was sweet but then they ended up not liking each other LOL and I got tons of roses =] and we just ate and talked and it was fun…

Setting at home February 17th 2005

Crying like crazy, bad thing happened and couldn’t stop crying…it as just so horrible…why did it happen? I just didn’t know…I thought everything was okay, but I guess it just wasn’t ….

Setting at Aida’s house February 28th 2005

So many people came over, ended up crying again…it was bad news once again…but it’s okay…it was okay fun but I think Aida was pissed off because someone weren’t allowed to come over but they ended up following anyways…yea….bad

Setting at Kings Plaza March 1, 2005

Harry, Ryan, Hassan, Angela, Steven, Kelvin, Chrissy, Judy and Aida went with me to Kings Plaza and was just walking around shopping for V-strings and boxers hehe….and then when me and Aida was going into the train there were two pigeons inside the train and attacked us…we started screaming HAHAHA….memories sighs…lol also when we entered Kings Plaza, it was like De Ja Vu again about Feburary 9th thingy…only we finally together without the stalking…LOL

Setting at Kings Plaza Movie Theater March 25, 2005

LOL, Jackie, Chrissy, Me, Kelvin, Kyle, Hassan, Steven, Ray, Jonathan went to watch Ring 2!! OMG I was carrying Jackie’s coat and I threw it at Hassan when we were in the theater but I didn’t know he was carrying Nachos and CHEESE…and it dipped right in there…and me and Chrissy just can’t stop laughing…then I was with Kelvin pratically sweating like crazy…rofl…IT WAS SCARY but Hassan, Steve and Ray made it like funny…it was so horny…then Carissa came with us and Hassan, Steve and Ray ditched us…so we went to Judy’s Chinese restaurant and ate there, and then we went to the park. Kelvin said bye bye =[ I played basketball…yay!! Okay that’s about it…I had a lot of fun moments…

Setting at school, Kyle’s house March 29, 2005

LOL…Kelvin asked me out when he walked me to class ^^ Of course I said YES. After school we went with Chrissy to Kyle’s house and Kyle asked Chrissy out and she said YES OMG I love this date!

Setting at home, April 15, 2005

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I found this today, and I literally went into tears. Everyone in here, I have not spoken to anymore.

Aida - You were my best friend since day one of Jr High. You never shared most of your secrets to me, but I knew I could’ve always counted on you. You changed a lot, but never once have you changed your bubbly attitude towards everything. I literally seen you grow up, and I’m glad. We’ve known each other for 7 years now, 7 years but out of all 7 years, the last three seem to have split us apart.

Christina - You’re my everything. If I was a guy, I would literally fall in love with you and make sure to love you forever because you deserve it. We separated but I still love you to death, and recently I’ve hurt you. It took me awhile to realize, how much you mean to me. I can move on from a heart break from a guy, but I can’t move on knowing I’ve hurt you. I wish I can make you smile, like back in freshman year. We don’t need them, we have each other.

Carissa - If you were to read this, you’re still in my mind too. At times I think how it would be to have you as a friend again. The moments we shared, and how much you helped me back then, I know you’re a wonderful person. Things have gone really wrong between us, and you’re probably still angry, but I still remembered when you gave me that key chain with the heart, one for me and one for you. You have no idea how much that meant to me, a lot more now since I don’t have you as a friend anymore. I wish you the most happiness in the future, because you’re also one of the person that deserve that kind of happiness.

Harry - I can’t believe just by talking to you during Global class could make me meet a whole bunch of new friends. Even though to be truthful we were never close, I kind of do thank you, because if it wasn’t for you, I wouldn’t have met all these people. Sorry that you have a short little thing, because we weren’t THAT close. BUT! I still remember when Aida called you and you slammed into that door like an idiot…

Ryan - Four years, I don’t know what to say anymore. Not like it matters much now anyway, but I still don’t understand why we stopped talking in the first place. But, you taught me a lot of things. More than you think you know, but I still think of the happy times when we were friends. I still remembered you decided to not eat meat for like a month, and you won -_-’ and I thought you couldn’t do it, and I truly believe up ‘till now, you have sneaked meat into your system during that month. Even though we don’t talk anymore, I can see you’re very happy. That makes me glad, you deserve to find a girl that you truly love and can love you back. Freshman year was such a long time ago, and we were both still very young and immature, but the experience with having you as more than just a friend, even though I was hurt by you, it was worth it. I hope you have a happy life Ryan.

Kelvin - I’m glad we still talk, even though as if nothing happened between us. That’s a good thing, and even though we weren’t close after freshman year, having an opportunity to be close with you again this year was very fun. Let’s continue having fun, before we graduate, so we end up remembering each other with good things. Memories last for a life time.

Hassan - Oh boy, how do I even start? There’s so many shit that happen between us, so many difficult times, so many dramatic times but I’ve seen you grow up. You also taught me a lot, and all the pain we cause each other, I think having you as friend at the end was the best choice. You will always be my friend, probably not as close as we were before. Remember all the movies we went, the places we’ve gone, I still have them all (: and it’s to remind me of all the happy times together, and gradually forget about the bad times. It’s a good thing, for both me and you.

For each and everyone of you, four years being in this school, freshman year was my most memorable. Now I can sit here, read all this and realize how much I’ve grown from this, and how much happiness I had with all of you. I wish you all a very happy future. It might not seem much coming from me, but we all experience a lot, whether if we’re in each other lives. High School was a wonderful experience, because it taught us how to love, how to hate, and how to forgive. We can branch off from our experience here, and grow up to become adults, and maybe few years from now, you guys can also read this, laugh about it, cry about it…

I’ve grown a lot too, it took me such a long time to realize that it’s really time for me to grow up. It’s time for me to stop acting stubborn, to stop being so dumb.

Smile (:

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This is great - I cannot believe I was like that when I was in High School.  I haven’t made these kinds of memories ever since I started College…

Nevertheless - this brings great moments - it makes me laugh about the foolish times

am breaking apart and on my knees crying, you’re the one that has been here for me. You make me feel so safe and secure; when I realize you’re not going to be here forever…

I broke apart on my knees crying.

:’( I wish he could’ve stayed longer

He’s here for the whole week! Yay :)

with brunette hair, and asian eyes but with green/hazel pupils and freckles.

My daughter will be as hot as:

Fucking Olivia Munn.